....and still.

....searching still....here I am....maybe I have a problem - according to the conventional. And I wonder, does this distract me from something more important?  {Where is she? Is she alive?} Ha ha a bit dramatic aren't I, or perhaps not...(...these days). Try harder perhaps-but how? What to do? Move on...But I think I've moved well enough and I'll keep moving, that doesn't mean I have to... Maybe I need finality to know that..... {she's moved on...}. Sad, that's what this is...(perhaps pathetic...)